Not a good day

Is not a good day...

I said it to myself...

Yes...it is...not a good day...

I had forced myself smiling for the whole day...

Socializing with a group of unknown people...

Unknown as in not familiar at all...

Forcing myself to listen to things I am not interested...

Forcing myself to be polite and smile...

Standing with heels...

Talk as soft...

I don't like it...

Just don't like it...

Yes....I do not deny that this is a good exposure...

But i just don't like it...

Consequently, I also realized that I don't like a person as much as I thought...

I thought I like him more than anyone else...

But NO...I did not...

I don't know why...

But I know things just wouldn't be right...

And then this thought came out out of noway...

YES...I don't like him...

As I thought I am...

And as my friends thought I am...

I nearly end up fighting with a friend...

Noway...noway...

** I need someone to talk to...someone that truly understand...is still not there  T^T